Identity

Who am I when no-one's watching? This was the theme of our evang event at church last night (ok they're probably called something more grown up and church like now rather than the CUish evang event but you know what I mean!) Obvisouly something I've been thinking about quite a bit recently as most of what I know and probably falsely built my identity on has been stripped away. I can easily say my identity is found in God, that I am a child of God, loved by him and holy and blameless in hi s sight, but how much do I believe it and how does it make a differnece to how I live my life? Why do I still then seek approval from people around me? And care more about what they think of me than what God thinks of me?
I've spent the last two Sunday afternoons in old people homes, helping with a service and chatting to the old people. I always find it quite difficult to initiate conversation, coz your stripped of the basic get to know you quesiton of 'So, what do you do?' - all they do is sit ... all day... maybe drink a cup of tea occasioanlly .... possibly shout at each other.... but they are still seen by God as being ultimately precious, after all we are human beings not human doings - so why do I try and justify my existance by what I do? I should learn to just be, and appreciate being a child of God.